My 2008 In Review

When it comes to Christmas, New Years, and the rest of the holiday season, I’d have to say that my favorite part is just the time to reflect. I get to reflect on faith, relationships, and just where I’m at in life. As we’ve come to the end of this year I feel like I’ve made a couple of good observations to help me make the most of this next year…

1. I feel like I’ve lost a lot of my passion as of late. Well…maybe not lost it, but rather replaced it. I feel like I’ve replaced my passion with tasks. I’m blessed enough to have a career where I get paid to do what I love. The downside is that now I don’t push myself to do it out of love; I just do it because I get paid. I miss wanting to learn blues on guitar just because I love blues. I miss wanting to worship out of my desire for God and not out of the need to put on a weekly service. I feel like my creativity is gone and everything I do is a cheap imitation of something else. I really think I want to regain that passion and creativity this next year.

2. The desire to learn is something that I definitely have. The discipline to apply myself and really get after learning is something I’m lacking. I’m going to be a better time manager this year. I’m going to read more books, watch more tutorials, and actually start college.

3. I need to be healthier…’nuf said.

4. I don’t want to be married. I have a great girlfriend and I love her dearly, but I don’t feel like my time to get married is in the near future. I have a good number of friends now who are getting married and “settling down” but I feel like at the age of 23 I’m just now reaching my “single” peek. I think that many of the young Christians I know have an unrealistic view of marriage and jump into it so they can justify sex. I admire those who truly weigh the commitment and take it seriously but the more I think about it, the less I feel like I’m even near ready.

I think that’s enough to keep me covered for now. I know that this year will be better than the last. I just pray that I’m closer to God, closer to my friends, and a better person at the end of it all.

~ by Ryan Rijken on January 1, 2009.

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